Desire and Restlessness

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Goddess of Mercy

Conquering Desire

Sri Aurobindo’s spiritual partner, The Mother, once wrote that, “To conquer a desire brings more joy than to satisfy it.”* When we conquer a desire, we take back the specific part of our power that we had invested in our desire nature. Every time we conquer a desire we strengthen our real self and weaken the lock that the negative ego and desire nature have over us. Every time we overcome a desire, we shorten the internal distance we must travel to reach our soul and claim our inner light. Every piece of power that we reclaim from our desire nature lessens the gap between who we think we are and who we really are.

Completion

Desire will never complete us because it leaves our inner darkness and negative ego intact. The more we chase our desires, the more we feed our restlessness. As our restlessness grows, our desires intensify. As one desire after another fails to elevate our lives in any lasting way, we replace those desires with others. The failure of desire leads to the birth of more desires. The more desire fails us, the more dominant our desire nature becomes.

The only solution to the problem of desire is to find our wholeness through integrating the physical and supra-physical aspects of our system. When we clear our toxicity we are well on the way to finding our wholeness.

The Negative Ego

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We Are Not Our Shame

The strategy of the negative ego is to keep us occupied in vain pursuits that feed it but do not feed us. If it can keep us focused on our greed and desire, the negative ego is assured of maintaining its power. To defeat the negative ego at its game, we must realize that we are not our shame. The territory of toxic emotion that the negative ego tries to hide from the world is not who we are. It is what prevents us from being who we are. To identify ourselves with our shame is to keep ourselves from our freedom. It is the error of identification that the negative ego wants us to make. It is the mistake that drives us to utilize our desire nature to flee from facing whatever false self we have erected and have come to believe that we are.

The whole rationale behind the power of desire is that if we succeed in fleeing from the pain of our shame, we can hide ourselves in material pleasure. The problem with that rationale is that pleasure always ends. Sooner or later, our pain will return and overwhelm us. As long as shame exists, it can never be entirely silenced.The strategies of the negative ego have a short shelf life.

The Adversaries of the Soul

What we must eventually realize is that what we fail to confront is much more dangerous to us than that what we choose to face. What we shrink from facing shrinks us. While we can actualize our desires, our desires cannot actualize us. Our soul contains our identity, our path, and our purpose. The negative ego only contains our unhealed wounds. The negative ego and our desire nature are the adversaries of our higher connection.

When we finally realize that the three forces of alienation- fear, greed and desire – are a dead end and lead nowhere, we are finally ready to enter the Elimination Zone and begin the path of personal evolution. What we need to keep in mind as we enter the Elimination Zone is that when we stand up to our fear, our fear will stand down. We regain our power when we confront the inner darkness and the negative ego that would otherwise diminish us.

Desire and Darkness

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Toxicity and Desire

The strength of our desire nature is determined by the degree of toxic emotion in our system. Toxic emotions create internal distance from our real self. Once that internal distance exists, most of us will attempt to close it by using desire rather than unconditional love in seeking fulfillment. Of course this strategy creates the opposite result of what we intended. Instead of leading to fulfillment, desire creates more internal distance between who we really are and what we have become.
Desire does not shorten our way home, but will, instead, add many unnecessary detours to our journey. While the pursuit of what we desire will not cure our emptiness, it does add to our desperation.

The Thrust of Desire

The internal distance from our real self that desire creates is the terrain of the negative ego. It is a terrain that we protect by our denial of its existence. One reason we resist facing ourselves is that the natural thrust of desire is outward. Desire seduces us with the idea that the answer to being lost, empty, confused, or unhappy can be found in the material world, rather than within ourselves. What we find in the material world, however, are material things. Material things can prop us up or puff us up, but they will never reveal who we really are. By leading us outward in the search for our truth, desire leads us in the wrong direction. In pursuing the material world to the detriment of our inner world, desire leads us away from confronting our shadow, which is comprised of our unresolved toxic energies.

The paradox of desire is that while it encourages us to walk away from our darkness, it is only by walking toward our darkness that we will go free. Inner darkness is always the antagonist of inner freedom. In many ways, desire is the agent of that darkness. As long as desire rules the psyche, that darkness will remain intact, and the internal distance we must travel to find ourselves is in constant danger of growing longer.

The Truth About the FED & A Great Book for You

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What Happens When You Lose Your Soul Connection

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The Crown Jewels

The Internal Void

Greed and desire are born from our loss of our soul connection and the void that loss creates within our psyche. When we lose our soul connection, we lose our ability to be a source of unconditional love. When we lose the ability to be a channel of unconditional love, we no longer know who we are. Greed and desire then become our response to the pain of losing our soul connection.

If we don’t find the one clear voice of our soul connection and true self, we will find ourselves swamped by the many disingenuous voices of our false selves. All these voices clamor for our attention, each one greedily demanding that we give it what it wants. Each voice claims to be our one true voice, the voice of our soul connection and tells us that if we get it what it wants, it will provide the answer to our unhappiness. However, the manifestation of each desire soon becomes another false hope. Since we don’t know how to reclaim our ability to love unconditionally, we cling instead to greed and desire. We will cling to greed and desire until we integrate the physical and supra-physical aspects of our system and regain our soul connection.

Toxicity and Desire

The strength of our desire nature is determined by the degree of toxic emotion in our system. Toxic emotions create internal distance from our real self and deprive us of our soul connection. Once that internal distance exists, most of us will attempt to close it by using desire rather than unconditional love in seeking fulfillment. Of course, this strategy creates the opposite result of what we intended. Instead of leading to fulfillment and soul connection, desire creates more internal distance between who we really are and what we have become.

Desire does not shorten our way home, but will instead, add many unnecessary detours to our journey. While the pursuit of what we desire will not cure our emptiness, it does add to our desperation.

The Glamor of Success

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Desire and Disappointment

It is highly ironic to be sure, but getting what we desire often leads to disappointment. The initial sense of excitement that accompanies the march of desire toward its objective soon gives way to the inevitable experience of boredom and emptiness once that objective has been attained. Despite getting what we wanted, nothing within has really changed. Fear, greed, and desire are still with us, while our soul and spirit remain outside our conscious experience. As a result of our alienation from the deeper aspects of ourselves, the magic of getting what we want fails to endure beyond the initial sense of excitement it brings us. We went up for awhile and briefly forgot ourselves. Then we came back down and had to face our reality again.

Getting what we wanted did not relieve the weight of our lives or reduce the burden of our living. It did not bring us lasting peace, fill us with a brighter light, or make us more joyful. It failed to make us more conscious, end our silent suffering, or liberate us from our darkness. While success can last for a long time, it will fail to satisfy us for more than a short time. That is the curse of success. Happiness is always over the next hill.

The Seduction of Greed and Desire

Without recourse to our soul and spirit, we have no way to find our center or to be at peace. Instead, we are assigned by our failure in integrating the two major aspects of our system to live between conflicting waves of emotion. The promise of desire leads to disappointment. The hunger of greed leads to unhappiness. Both greed and desire lead us farther away from our real self. This is the seduction of greed and desire. Greed and desire can never complete us or make us whole. Instead, they create more distance between how we are manifesting ourselves in the world and who we really are.

The Coming Zombie Generations

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Drugs

Building a Human Robot

A lot of recent media attention has focused on the zombie effect, making the state of a walking human robot seem cool and attractive. The media never does anything by accident. The zombie campaign is by design, part of a social engineering agenda to dumb down society even more. Dr Peter Breggin, a noted psychiatrist, wrote about this trend in a recent blog on the Huffington Post. In that post Dr Breggin quotes from an article by Prof. Richard Friedman of Cornell Medical college in NYC.

Anti-Psychotic Drugs

“You will never guess,” wrote Prof. Friedman, “what the fifth and sixth best-selling prescription drugs are in the United States, so I’ll just tell you: Abilify and Seroquel, two powerful antipsychotics. In 2011 alone, they and other antipsychotic drugs were prescribed to 3.1 million Americans at a cost of $18.2 billion, a 13 percent increase over the previous year, according to the market research firm IMS Health.”

Friedman further wrote that “It was also soon discovered that the second-generation antipsychotic drugs had serious side effects of their own, namely a risk of increased blood sugar, elevated lipids and cholesterol, and weight gain.”

Lobotomizing Agents

After quoting Prof. Friedman Dr. Breggin wrote that “The reality is that all of these drugs are nonspecific lobotomizing agents that disrupt biochemical neurotransmission to the frontal lobes. I examine these effects in my book: Brain Disabling Treatments in Psychiatry, Second Edition. They achieve their effect by making people indifferent and apathetic toward their own suffering and toward life itself, in the extreme creating a grossly apparent zombie effect. A number of studies, summarized in my new book, Psychiatric Drug Withdrawal, also indicate that they may shorten the lifespan by many years in some patient populations.

These drugs are being prescribed for everyday anxiety and insomnia and given to children for ADD and insomnia among other conditions. Big Pharma in conjunction with the PTB are intent on raising a generation of with zombie characteristics to serve their agenda. They want a mindless and docile population, in short, a zombie world. Start the zombie effect young and keep them hooked for life. As noted by Dr. Breggin, these drugs take years off the life of those who have been prescribed them. That makes it even sweeter for the PTB. A real two for one deal. Start the zombie effect early. Make them dumb from the get go and let them die young. Who cares? Certainly not the PTB. A zombie has little worth and utility. Once the machinery is in place its easy to create another zombie or another thousand.

Here’s the link for the full article. Please take a few minutes and read it.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/dr-peter-breggin/antipsychotics_b_1917705.html?utm_hp_ref=tw

Greed

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Those among us whose only goal is the acquisition of power and wealth rarely see beyond their greed to what it is they truly need. When people are in greed mode, they become so enmeshed in craving what they want, and so absorbed by the fear that they might not get it, that they become totally oblivious to the silent voice of their deepest longing. Their attachment to their greed makes their alienation difficult to resolve.

Whenever greed and desire are the paramount values in the psyche, the soul is undervalued, its importance denied, and its power misunderstood. The person in greed mode lives on the surface of his being. The hidden resources of his deeper nature lie untapped, unable to feed his surface strength. He is split off from his true self and his deeper life purpose. While he may not know it, he is working against his true self and his future. His collapse is inevitable. That is the legacy of greed.

One day, the comfort of external success derived from greed will give way to the dejection of internal defeat, and like the Roman Emperor Septimius Severus before him, he will be haunted by the long shadow enveloping his life, knowing that he has failed at his most important task. For those in greed mode, the more success their endeavors bring them, the more their greed seems to consume them. That greed will take them on an unexpected journey as they travel farther into emptiness and further from themselves. Success is not always the antidote to greed. In fact, it often adds fuel to its fire.

Unconscious Toxicity: A Clear and Present Danger

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Rolls Royce: Symbol of External Success

The Subtle Trap of Success

Becoming successful, without first clearing our unconscious toxicity and becoming aware of who we really are, may present a clear and present danger to our internal balance and well-being. As our degree of success increases, we may think that the unconscious toxicity lodged in the core of our being is irrelevant, or alternatively, we may believe that we don’t have any unconscious toxicity to deal with. But dismissing the effect of that unconscious toxicity on our lives, or denying its existence, does not mean that we have deactivated it. That unconscious toxicity is still alive deep inside us, watching and waiting, luxuriating in our denial of its existence, biding its time, attracting scant  attention, building its force and making its plans, all the while lulling us into thinking that it is no longer a threat.

The Threat of Unconscious Toxicity

Unconscious toxicity is always a threat. It will strike when it is ready and we are not. It will appear on its schedule and with its own agenda, one that is certain to be in conflict with ours. It will come when it has all the advantages and we have none. It will throw us off balance, and it will most assuredly wreak more havoc in our lives. Of course, when that unconscious toxicity surfaces, the most likely way that we will react to its appearance is by unleashing the three forces of alienation in an attempt to control the damage to our lives. In following that strategy, all that we will succeed in doing is to strengthen the very thing we wish to defeat, the patterns and manifestation of our unconscious toxicity.

Our young man from an earlier post may do well for a time, thinking he has finally walked away from his childhood and defeated his past manifestations of unconscious toxicity. Then one day, he may fall hopelessly in love with a beautiful young woman, who, in due course, will come to treat him as contemptuously and critically as his mother ever had. Or, he may land his dream job only to discover that his boss is as verbally abusive to him as his father once had been. Or even worse, he may simultaneously fall in love with the wrong woman and get a new job with a boss who is highly toxic to him. Too late, he is forced to realize that his unconscious toxicity rules his life.

Why Repression is Dangerous to Your Growth and Evolution

The lesson is clear. What we repress and deny is highly charged, although we may not feel it, and it is always dangerous to our interests, although we may not know it. I once wrote a short verse to describe the potency of unconscious toxicity. Unconscious toxicity has a purpose and a mission of its own, which is always antagonistic to our conscious hopes and plans. Its purpose is to defeat us by defeating our dreams and to render us frustrated and unfulfilled by continually repeating the toxic unconscious patterns of our past.

Within each and everyone of us,

Lives a shadow that never sleeps.

Its goal is deprivation.

It exults in our defeat.


External accomplishment does not automatically translate into inner achievement. Material success cannot compensate for internal emptiness and the loss of the Self. Greed is not a substitute for inner peace, and desire can never tell us who we are.

The Truth About Pyramids

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Pyramid of the Sun, Teotihuaca, Mexico

Pyramids Aren’t Tombs!

I was in Michigan last week attending a conference on Pyramids led by my good friend Stewart Swerdlow. The guest speaker was an archaeologist from Bosnia named Dr Sam Osmanagich. Dr. Sam gave a three hour lecture on pyramids and their true purpose. It was one of the best lectures I’ve ever heard. This guy is an international treasure. There are hundreds of pyramids all over the world. Pyramids are not tombs for Pharoahs, kings or anyone else. The largest and most important pyramids in the world are not in Egypt like we’ve been taught to believe, but in Bosnia. These pyramids were recently discovered by Dr Sam and are being uncovered slowly. It’s much larger than the great pyramids of Egypt and appears to be much older. Underneath it are several layers of tunnels. It is a four sided pyramid made of concrete slabs that are much stronger than any concrete we use today. It is thought that the Romans discovered concrete two thousand years ago. Again, not so. Whoever built the Bosnian pyramids created a much stronger form of concrete many thousands of years before Rome existed.

Free Energy

The real purpose of this and most other pyramids around the world is as a free energy device. Underneath the Bosnian Pyramid of the Sun is a large crystal encased in ceramic. This crystal is the source of free energy that shoots up through the top of the pyramid and reaches far into the galaxy. It has been doing this continuously without interruption for tens of thousands of years.

Non Hertzian Energy

The free energy emanating from the top of the Pyramid of the Sun is an example of non-hertzian energy, according to Dr Sam. In other words, the signal grows stronger the farther you travel from the source. In typical hertz related measurements, the signal is strongest where it emanates from and grows weaker the farther one travels from the source. The free energy from the Bosnian Pyramid of the Sun completely reverses the Hertz energy pattern.

Negative Ion Concentration

In the tunnels under the Pyramid the concentration of negative ions is something like 40,000 per cubic foot. In a normal room the concentration is approximately 300 per cubic foot. Negative ions kill pathogens like virus, bacteria, fungus, mold. Many people have reported improvements in their health when they stay in the tunnels for a short time.

If this form of free, non polluting energy were to be put use in the world, the world economy would be incredibly productive and most people would experience a greater degree of health and abundance. There would be no more wars for energy; no more domination by cartels controlling the world’s supply of energy and charging exorbitant fees for it.

So if you want to plan a trip to one of the most fascinating sites on the planet forget about Egypt. Go to Bosnia and see the pyramids in The Pyramid of the Sun complex.

For more information on Dr. Sam Osmanagich and the Bosnian Pyramids go to www.bosnianpyramidofthesun.com