California Dreamin’

Los Angeles

I’ve just returned from a wonderful week in LA. I was lucky. The winter disappeared while I was there. Instead of cold and rain I had brilliant blue skies and temperatures in the sixties and seventies. Wherever I went I ran into people I knew and loved. That always seems to happen to me whenever I’m in LA.

I made progress in getting producers interested in my novel THE SILENT STEPS OF GRACE. One day it will be a powerful and uplifting and inspiring movie that will help people in their lives. One very successful producer of several big movie hits called the book “tremendous”.  He also said that he found one of the story lines disturbing. That most certainly was the hidden history of the United States. The real history of this country is certainly not what we were all force fed in school.

He also asked me why I wanted to get involved in the movie business. “If you have a happy life and are o.k. financially why would you want to make your book into a movie?” he asked me.

“To see it come alive on the screen,” I replied. “Money and notoriety are a distant second.”

“You’ll pay a price for that,” he sighed. “You’ll be dealing with the worst people in the world. My advice is don’t do it.”

He may well be right. Only time will tell what the price of success is.

L.A. is an acquired taste. At first, it’s overwhelming. Huge, too many people and far too many cars. It takes time to get grounded and get your bearings. A friend of mine, who is a Ph. D. and runs a multi-discipline program at USC, calls LA a cesspool. It certainly is that. But if you take your time and separate the wheat from the chaff, you will find wonderful and extraordinary people. I know tons of them and am honored to call them my friends.

Getting around the city is a nightmare. It’s rush hour traffic all day long. One friend said if he has an appointment in Beverly Hills he’ll leave three hours early so he won’t be caught in heavy traffic. He’ll work in a coffee shop in Beverly Hills until it’s time for his meeting. That’s how bad the traffic is. Another friend of mine said it took him 90 minutes to go less than 2 miles. Several people said the traffic made LA almost unlivable.

LA has several advantages and disadvantages.

The advantages are:

  1. great climate
  2. very open and creative culture
  3. great food choices, particularly in Santa Monica and Venice
  4. Santa Monica and Venice are ground zero for healthy conscious eating
  5. Lots of organic restaurants
  6. Great health food stores, particularly Co-Opportunity in Santa Monica which may be the best health food store in the country
  7. Great beaches
  8. Great people
  9. Home of the movie and TV industries
  10. Lots of people striving to grow and become more conscious

The disadvantages are:

  1. High cost of living. Real estate is incredibly expensive. Rents are high.
  2. High taxes.
  3. Traffic and gridlock
  4. Lots of toxic people
  5. LA and Southern California are in the direct path of radioactive winds coming from the crippled reactors in Fukushima
  6. A monster quake that will level virtually every structure in SoCal could happen at any time.

For me, the cost and risk of living in LA outweigh the benefits of returning there to live. That’s why I left after living there for 16 years and will not return. My solution is to travel there frequently, see my friends and work to make my novel into a movie.

If you haven’t yet read THE SILENT STEPS OF GRACE you should. It’s a great story. It will move you, inspire you and educate you. In short, it’s a game changer. You will find more information about it on my website or on It is available in both print and digital formats.





Women in Combat

women in combat

Combat and Targeted Killing

On January 23 Obama announced a new policy that will allow women in combat roles. This is insane. First, Obama came out with a new edict saying that American citizens can be the object of targeted killing. Now he says women  in combat is an idea whose time has come. It’s now time for women in combat to kill the enemy, just like men have always done. Well, men and women are inherently different. Both their physiology and psychology are different. Their brains are different. Their hearts are different. And their reproductive systems are obviously different. According to a female psycho-biologist women speak 22,000 to 23,000 words a day. Men only 6,000. Yet feminists insist, over and over again, that all differences between men and women are due to “socialization”.  That’s their mantra and by God, they’re sticking to it.



Why would anyone believe such obvious disinformation and spurious propangada? The answer: Millions of deluded people with NO common sense.   It illustrates how easy it is to brainwash and mind-control vast swatches of the population. Women in combat? Come on Pres. Obama and Sec. of Defense Panetta. Targeting American citizens to be killed and allowing women in combat to kill or be killed? Whatever happened to common sense, honor and the moral high ground? That’s why the world always looked up to America in the past. Now the world despises America. They see us as bullies and terrorists. The days of honor, morality and doing the right thing seem sadly behind us. And our answer is to allow women in combat?

Here’s a great article on why women should NOT be in combat.


Possession: The Astral Intruder


Some years ago an older female client came to my office in Austin. She had driven three hours from a small town in central Texas to see me. At first meeting, she seemed normal enough, polite and low key, but appearances often deceive. This woman harbored a toxic secret she wanted to remain hidden.

After exchanging pleasantries she lay down on the table and I went to work. I always start my sessions by placing one hand under the base of my client’s skull and the other under the base of her spine. As soon as my hands make contact with my client’s spine the healing energy starts flowing. This quickly relaxes the client and allows me to see what’s going on in their energy field, their body and their soul. When I scanned this woman there was something very unusual going on. There seemed to be something living inside her hidden away in the darkest recesses of her soul. She wasn’t pregnant, she was too old for that.  I turned up the energy, making it stronger and more powerful so I could see better and bring this thing, whatever it was, to the surface. The strong energy put the woman in a deep sleep.

Suddenly her body spoke in a masculine voice. “Stop this,” commanded the voice, “or I will kill you.” A long, thin astral entity had risen from it’s hiding place and taken control of her body. The entity, using her hand, tried to grab me. But as it got closer to me the energy burned it and the entity had to pull back.

The entity grimaced, then threatened to kill me again. I told it that it had a choice to make. It could either be transformed and go into the light or I would kill it.

“You can’t kill me,” it screamed, reaching for me once more. Again, it’s hand got burned.  The entity sighed and withdrew it quickly.

“This is your final chance,” I said. “Leave this woman and go into the light or I will have to destroy you.”

“You can’t destroy me. You don’t have the power,” it said contemptuously.

“O.K.,” I said. “You’ve made your choice.” I turned up the power. The entity shuddered a few times before dissolving into a plume of grey smoke that rose out of my clients head and disappeared through the ceiling.

My client awoke in shock a moment later. “What happened?” she asked in a panic. “I feel so empty.”

“You were possessed by an astral entity. It’s gone. It won’t be back.”

“But it was my only friend!” she protested.

“Who told you that?”

“It did. It said it would always be with me. Everyone else always abandoned me.”

“It was never your friend. It played on your weakness to control you. I’m sure the entity chased your other friends away without your knowing it. Now you’ll be able to lead a normal life and have real friends.”

“Do you really think so?”

“I do. Call me in a couple of months and let me know how you’re doing.”

She called a few months later to say she felt much better and had a whole new circle of friends she had met through a cooking class.




The Ego and Enlightenment: Part 2 The Healthy Ego

It Might Take A While

Building a Healthy Ego

Building a healthy ego represents a quantum leap forward in evolution from the short leash of the negative ego. The creation of the negative ego is an unconscious response to the presence of toxic emotional content in our system. Its mission is to defend us from being repeatedly hurt. Its job is to prevent the accumulation of more toxic emotion in our system. Unfortunately, the cache of toxic emotion already stored in our psyche is highly magnetic and attracts more wounding experiences to us. With each new wound the negative ego becomes more defensive and brittle. Its ability to protect us from  harm is an illusion. All it is capable of doing is sealing off the hurt in our system and discouraging us from healing our lives. If it succeeds in this directive it will shut us down, increasing its power as we lose ours.

The negative ego has three essential characteristics:

1. It is a response to unconscious toxicity.

2. At the core of every negative ego is an inner victim who feels justified in taking whatever action it deems appropriate to “get even” with its antagonist(s).

3. The presence of unconscious toxicity, the negative ego, and the inner victim separate us from our soul.

Separation From Our Soul

Separation from our soul has serious long term repercussions in our lives.  If we are dominated by the negative ego we will not be whole or integrated. Instead we will be subject to repetitive wounding experiences. We will not have access to our real power. We will go through life not knowing who we really are or what our true purpose is. When we are in the grip of the negative ego our evolution is unconscious, slow, and glacial. We are lost and our life will be a failure.

The healthy ego is a conscious response to the predicament the negative ego has placed us in. The healthy ego is in the business of uncovering our unconscious toxicity and clearing it from our system. The healthy ego does not set itself up as the soul’s antagonist as the negative ego does. It is not interested in maintaining its own power at our expense. Rather the healthy ego actively seeks reunion with the soul.

Dark Night of the Soul

Clearing Darkness from Our Soul

Contrary to what you might expect, the first step to creating a healthy ego is not doing yoga and meditation. It is turning within to confront the toxicity buried in our system. Make no mistake. We all have toxic material stored in our subconscious. Some of that material is from events in this life. Often, there is even more content  from other lifetimes of which we are no longer conscious. We must clear it all. Every time we clear a layer of darkness and toxicity from our system we open more of our system to the Light of our soul and build a healthy ego. It is the Light of our Soul that redeems us, makes us whole and forms a healthy ego. As we clear our darkness, the inner victim disappears, the negative ego dies, and the long running nightmare of separation comes to an end.

Barbara was in her mid sixties when she came to me. Her husband had died five years earlier and while she felt that she was over his loss she felt stuck in her life. In her first telephone session I could see that there was still a lot of blocked grief in her heart and lungs. I sent the healing energy via the phone to her chest area. Within minutes she started sobbing and continued to cry for the entire session.

In our next session a deeper layer of her toxicity came up from her childhood. Her mother had been overbearing, cold, and critical. Barbara could never do anything right. She associated love with pleasing her mother. As an adult she became a chronic “pleaser.” She tried to please her husband and her three sons, thinking that was being loving. What it really was a subtle form of giving away her power and allowing herself to be controlled by them.

The Power of Saying No

As Barbara confronted the toxic nature of her relationship with her mother and began the process of clearing it from her psyche many surprising changes started to occur in her life. She found herself spontaneously standing up for herself and saying no to friends and family that had been used to manipulating her through criticism. She no longer cared about pleasing people, but doing what was in harmony with her true nature. Part of establishing that harmony was standing up and saying no to people who tried to use her. Saying no in this fashion is an attribute of a healthy ego.

By saying no Barbara took back her power, established her integrity, protected her budding relationship with her soul and developed a healthy ego.

The Swan: Symbol of the Healthy Ego

Creating Strong Boundaries

When we clear our toxicity, as Barbara’s story suggests, we begin to develop strong boundaries that reflect our integrity. The creation of strong boundaries is an indication that our inner victim has been healed and a heathy ego has been installed. When Barbara stood up for herself she was no longer the victim reacting to being wounded again. Instead she was proactive, taking action to insure that she would not suffer further hurt.

The healthy ego is proactive, learning to stand in its own power and actively seeking greater contact with the Soul. As it grows into itself the healthy ego lets down its barriers, stops being defensive, and learns to love, something the negative ego as it is constructed is incapable of. We will not experience true freedom until we learn to love unconditionally.