Desire and Darkness

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Toxicity and Desire

The strength of our desire nature is determined by the degree of toxic emotion in our system. Toxic emotions create internal distance from our real self. Once that internal distance exists, most of us will attempt to close it by using desire rather than unconditional love in seeking fulfillment. Of course this strategy creates the opposite result of what we intended. Instead of leading to fulfillment, desire creates more internal distance between who we really are and what we have become.
Desire does not shorten our way home, but will, instead, add many unnecessary detours to our journey. While the pursuit of what we desire will not cure our emptiness, it does add to our desperation.

The Thrust of Desire

The internal distance from our real self that desire creates is the terrain of the negative ego. It is a terrain that we protect by our denial of its existence. One reason we resist facing ourselves is that the natural thrust of desire is outward. Desire seduces us with the idea that the answer to being lost, empty, confused, or unhappy can be found in the material world, rather than within ourselves. What we find in the material world, however, are material things. Material things can prop us up or puff us up, but they will never reveal who we really are. By leading us outward in the search for our truth, desire leads us in the wrong direction. In pursuing the material world to the detriment of our inner world, desire leads us away from confronting our shadow, which is comprised of our unresolved toxic energies.

The paradox of desire is that while it encourages us to walk away from our darkness, it is only by walking toward our darkness that we will go free. Inner darkness is always the antagonist of inner freedom. In many ways, desire is the agent of that darkness. As long as desire rules the psyche, that darkness will remain intact, and the internal distance we must travel to find ourselves is in constant danger of growing longer.

The Truth About the FED & A Great Book for You

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What Happens When You Lose Your Soul Connection

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The Crown Jewels

The Internal Void

Greed and desire are born from our loss of our soul connection and the void that loss creates within our psyche. When we lose our soul connection, we lose our ability to be a source of unconditional love. When we lose the ability to be a channel of unconditional love, we no longer know who we are. Greed and desire then become our response to the pain of losing our soul connection.

If we don’t find the one clear voice of our soul connection and true self, we will find ourselves swamped by the many disingenuous voices of our false selves. All these voices clamor for our attention, each one greedily demanding that we give it what it wants. Each voice claims to be our one true voice, the voice of our soul connection and tells us that if we get it what it wants, it will provide the answer to our unhappiness. However, the manifestation of each desire soon becomes another false hope. Since we don’t know how to reclaim our ability to love unconditionally, we cling instead to greed and desire. We will cling to greed and desire until we integrate the physical and supra-physical aspects of our system and regain our soul connection.

Toxicity and Desire

The strength of our desire nature is determined by the degree of toxic emotion in our system. Toxic emotions create internal distance from our real self and deprive us of our soul connection. Once that internal distance exists, most of us will attempt to close it by using desire rather than unconditional love in seeking fulfillment. Of course, this strategy creates the opposite result of what we intended. Instead of leading to fulfillment and soul connection, desire creates more internal distance between who we really are and what we have become.

Desire does not shorten our way home, but will instead, add many unnecessary detours to our journey. While the pursuit of what we desire will not cure our emptiness, it does add to our desperation.

The Glamor of Success

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Desire and Disappointment

It is highly ironic to be sure, but getting what we desire often leads to disappointment. The initial sense of excitement that accompanies the march of desire toward its objective soon gives way to the inevitable experience of boredom and emptiness once that objective has been attained. Despite getting what we wanted, nothing within has really changed. Fear, greed, and desire are still with us, while our soul and spirit remain outside our conscious experience. As a result of our alienation from the deeper aspects of ourselves, the magic of getting what we want fails to endure beyond the initial sense of excitement it brings us. We went up for awhile and briefly forgot ourselves. Then we came back down and had to face our reality again.

Getting what we wanted did not relieve the weight of our lives or reduce the burden of our living. It did not bring us lasting peace, fill us with a brighter light, or make us more joyful. It failed to make us more conscious, end our silent suffering, or liberate us from our darkness. While success can last for a long time, it will fail to satisfy us for more than a short time. That is the curse of success. Happiness is always over the next hill.

The Seduction of Greed and Desire

Without recourse to our soul and spirit, we have no way to find our center or to be at peace. Instead, we are assigned by our failure in integrating the two major aspects of our system to live between conflicting waves of emotion. The promise of desire leads to disappointment. The hunger of greed leads to unhappiness. Both greed and desire lead us farther away from our real self. This is the seduction of greed and desire. Greed and desire can never complete us or make us whole. Instead, they create more distance between how we are manifesting ourselves in the world and who we really are.

The Coming Zombie Generations

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Drugs

Building a Human Robot

A lot of recent media attention has focused on the zombie effect, making the state of a walking human robot seem cool and attractive. The media never does anything by accident. The zombie campaign is by design, part of a social engineering agenda to dumb down society even more. Dr Peter Breggin, a noted psychiatrist, wrote about this trend in a recent blog on the Huffington Post. In that post Dr Breggin quotes from an article by Prof. Richard Friedman of Cornell Medical college in NYC.

Anti-Psychotic Drugs

“You will never guess,” wrote Prof. Friedman, “what the fifth and sixth best-selling prescription drugs are in the United States, so I’ll just tell you: Abilify and Seroquel, two powerful antipsychotics. In 2011 alone, they and other antipsychotic drugs were prescribed to 3.1 million Americans at a cost of $18.2 billion, a 13 percent increase over the previous year, according to the market research firm IMS Health.”

Friedman further wrote that “It was also soon discovered that the second-generation antipsychotic drugs had serious side effects of their own, namely a risk of increased blood sugar, elevated lipids and cholesterol, and weight gain.”

Lobotomizing Agents

After quoting Prof. Friedman Dr. Breggin wrote that “The reality is that all of these drugs are nonspecific lobotomizing agents that disrupt biochemical neurotransmission to the frontal lobes. I examine these effects in my book: Brain Disabling Treatments in Psychiatry, Second Edition. They achieve their effect by making people indifferent and apathetic toward their own suffering and toward life itself, in the extreme creating a grossly apparent zombie effect. A number of studies, summarized in my new book, Psychiatric Drug Withdrawal, also indicate that they may shorten the lifespan by many years in some patient populations.

These drugs are being prescribed for everyday anxiety and insomnia and given to children for ADD and insomnia among other conditions. Big Pharma in conjunction with the PTB are intent on raising a generation of with zombie characteristics to serve their agenda. They want a mindless and docile population, in short, a zombie world. Start the zombie effect young and keep them hooked for life. As noted by Dr. Breggin, these drugs take years off the life of those who have been prescribed them. That makes it even sweeter for the PTB. A real two for one deal. Start the zombie effect early. Make them dumb from the get go and let them die young. Who cares? Certainly not the PTB. A zombie has little worth and utility. Once the machinery is in place its easy to create another zombie or another thousand.

Here’s the link for the full article. Please take a few minutes and read it.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/dr-peter-breggin/antipsychotics_b_1917705.html?utm_hp_ref=tw

Greed

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Those among us whose only goal is the acquisition of power and wealth rarely see beyond their greed to what it is they truly need. When people are in greed mode, they become so enmeshed in craving what they want, and so absorbed by the fear that they might not get it, that they become totally oblivious to the silent voice of their deepest longing. Their attachment to their greed makes their alienation difficult to resolve.

Whenever greed and desire are the paramount values in the psyche, the soul is undervalued, its importance denied, and its power misunderstood. The person in greed mode lives on the surface of his being. The hidden resources of his deeper nature lie untapped, unable to feed his surface strength. He is split off from his true self and his deeper life purpose. While he may not know it, he is working against his true self and his future. His collapse is inevitable. That is the legacy of greed.

One day, the comfort of external success derived from greed will give way to the dejection of internal defeat, and like the Roman Emperor Septimius Severus before him, he will be haunted by the long shadow enveloping his life, knowing that he has failed at his most important task. For those in greed mode, the more success their endeavors bring them, the more their greed seems to consume them. That greed will take them on an unexpected journey as they travel farther into emptiness and further from themselves. Success is not always the antidote to greed. In fact, it often adds fuel to its fire.

Unconscious Toxicity: A Clear and Present Danger

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Rolls Royce: Symbol of External Success

The Subtle Trap of Success

Becoming successful, without first clearing our unconscious toxicity and becoming aware of who we really are, may present a clear and present danger to our internal balance and well-being. As our degree of success increases, we may think that the unconscious toxicity lodged in the core of our being is irrelevant, or alternatively, we may believe that we don’t have any unconscious toxicity to deal with. But dismissing the effect of that unconscious toxicity on our lives, or denying its existence, does not mean that we have deactivated it. That unconscious toxicity is still alive deep inside us, watching and waiting, luxuriating in our denial of its existence, biding its time, attracting scant  attention, building its force and making its plans, all the while lulling us into thinking that it is no longer a threat.

The Threat of Unconscious Toxicity

Unconscious toxicity is always a threat. It will strike when it is ready and we are not. It will appear on its schedule and with its own agenda, one that is certain to be in conflict with ours. It will come when it has all the advantages and we have none. It will throw us off balance, and it will most assuredly wreak more havoc in our lives. Of course, when that unconscious toxicity surfaces, the most likely way that we will react to its appearance is by unleashing the three forces of alienation in an attempt to control the damage to our lives. In following that strategy, all that we will succeed in doing is to strengthen the very thing we wish to defeat, the patterns and manifestation of our unconscious toxicity.

Our young man from an earlier post may do well for a time, thinking he has finally walked away from his childhood and defeated his past manifestations of unconscious toxicity. Then one day, he may fall hopelessly in love with a beautiful young woman, who, in due course, will come to treat him as contemptuously and critically as his mother ever had. Or, he may land his dream job only to discover that his boss is as verbally abusive to him as his father once had been. Or even worse, he may simultaneously fall in love with the wrong woman and get a new job with a boss who is highly toxic to him. Too late, he is forced to realize that his unconscious toxicity rules his life.

Why Repression is Dangerous to Your Growth and Evolution

The lesson is clear. What we repress and deny is highly charged, although we may not feel it, and it is always dangerous to our interests, although we may not know it. I once wrote a short verse to describe the potency of unconscious toxicity. Unconscious toxicity has a purpose and a mission of its own, which is always antagonistic to our conscious hopes and plans. Its purpose is to defeat us by defeating our dreams and to render us frustrated and unfulfilled by continually repeating the toxic unconscious patterns of our past.

Within each and everyone of us,

Lives a shadow that never sleeps.

Its goal is deprivation.

It exults in our defeat.


External accomplishment does not automatically translate into inner achievement. Material success cannot compensate for internal emptiness and the loss of the Self. Greed is not a substitute for inner peace, and desire can never tell us who we are.

The Truth About Pyramids

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Pyramid of the Sun, Teotihuaca, Mexico

Pyramids Aren’t Tombs!

I was in Michigan last week attending a conference on Pyramids led by my good friend Stewart Swerdlow. The guest speaker was an archaeologist from Bosnia named Dr Sam Osmanagich. Dr. Sam gave a three hour lecture on pyramids and their true purpose. It was one of the best lectures I’ve ever heard. This guy is an international treasure. There are hundreds of pyramids all over the world. Pyramids are not tombs for Pharoahs, kings or anyone else. The largest and most important pyramids in the world are not in Egypt like we’ve been taught to believe, but in Bosnia. These pyramids were recently discovered by Dr Sam and are being uncovered slowly. It’s much larger than the great pyramids of Egypt and appears to be much older. Underneath it are several layers of tunnels. It is a four sided pyramid made of concrete slabs that are much stronger than any concrete we use today. It is thought that the Romans discovered concrete two thousand years ago. Again, not so. Whoever built the Bosnian pyramids created a much stronger form of concrete many thousands of years before Rome existed.

Free Energy

The real purpose of this and most other pyramids around the world is as a free energy device. Underneath the Bosnian Pyramid of the Sun is a large crystal encased in ceramic. This crystal is the source of free energy that shoots up through the top of the pyramid and reaches far into the galaxy. It has been doing this continuously without interruption for tens of thousands of years.

Non Hertzian Energy

The free energy emanating from the top of the Pyramid of the Sun is an example of non-hertzian energy, according to Dr Sam. In other words, the signal grows stronger the farther you travel from the source. In typical hertz related measurements, the signal is strongest where it emanates from and grows weaker the farther one travels from the source. The free energy from the Bosnian Pyramid of the Sun completely reverses the Hertz energy pattern.

Negative Ion Concentration

In the tunnels under the Pyramid the concentration of negative ions is something like 40,000 per cubic foot. In a normal room the concentration is approximately 300 per cubic foot. Negative ions kill pathogens like virus, bacteria, fungus, mold. Many people have reported improvements in their health when they stay in the tunnels for a short time.

If this form of free, non polluting energy were to be put use in the world, the world economy would be incredibly productive and most people would experience a greater degree of health and abundance. There would be no more wars for energy; no more domination by cartels controlling the world’s supply of energy and charging exorbitant fees for it.

So if you want to plan a trip to one of the most fascinating sites on the planet forget about Egypt. Go to Bosnia and see the pyramids in The Pyramid of the Sun complex.

For more information on Dr. Sam Osmanagich and the Bosnian Pyramids go to www.bosnianpyramidofthesun.com

 

 

The King and His Son

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The King and His Son

There is a wonderful story from the Old Testament that concerns a conflict between a king and his son and the power of the spirit to resolve that conflict. The king had been preoccupied with matters of state and unable to spend much time with his family. One day, he decided he wanted to see his son so he called in his chief minister and instructed him to find the young man and bring him to his audience chamber at once. After a long search the minister found the son and told him of the king’s order. The young man said he was busy at the moment and couldn’t come to the palace to see his father. The chief minister was appalled. In his world you didn’t defy the orders of a king. However, since he had no power to force the king’s son to return to the palace, the chief minister had no choice but to return empty handed and report to the king what the young prince had said. The king was shocked and upset when the chief minister told him his son’s answer. After all he was the king. No one dared to disobey him. Who was his son to do so?

Again, he ordered his chief minister to find the young man and command him to come to the palace immediately. The chief minister, however, could not find the young man. Eventually, he learned that king’s son had fled the kingdom. With a heavy heart the chief minister returned to the palace and informed the king that his son had run away. This time instead of getting angry, the king became introspective and quiet. The father in him took over. As he thought the matter through, he realized that his relationship with his son was far more important than his authority and control over him. His insensitive demands had driven his son away. Only his love and respect could bring him back. With his mind now clear, the king gave new instructions to his chief minister, “Go and find my son, and when you have found him, tell him to come as far as he can. I will come the rest of the way.”

The possibility of losing his son had shocked the king and brought him back to his true nature. By moving outside his ego, he connected with his soul and found the answer to his problem. By stepping outside his role as the king, and away from his power to dominate the lives of his subjects that this role gave him, he was able to act with humility and find common ground with his son. By placing a more important value on serving his son than on controlling him, the king displayed his wisdom.
We are not always as wise as the king or as prepared to be humble in the service of love and truth. Instead of moving back a step, cooling down, and seeking to find the way out of conflict, we are often prone to react under the auspices of the three forces of alienation, fear, greed, and desire, thereby making things much worse for everyone involved, including ourselves.

Emptiness and Futility

Whenever the three forces of alienation attain systemic dominance in our lives, the end result of that dominance is a growing conviction of the futility of life. If we are busy and successful we can override that sense of futility for a time, but our success will never entirely eradicate it. We can cover it up, but we cannot expunge it.

Most people make the mistake of thinking that if they succeed in the external world, their success will automatically translate to their inner life: that in some mysterious, mystical, unthinking, and unfathomable fashion, their affluence will cross-pollinate and blossom into happiness, meaning, peace, and fulfillment. The long history of man, however, suggests a far different outcome. Cross-pollination has always been far more a hope than it ever has been a reality. While mankind has renewed its pursuit of this dream in each successive generation, spiritual law suggests that in doing so we have put the cart before the horse. What we gain in the world does not translate into increased internal light, nor can it compensate for what we lose when we ignore our inner growth. However, if we were to reverse the normal order of things and seek our growth first, success would come to us in a much easier fashion, and that success would be more in harmony with our essential nature. When we find ourselves, it is much easier to be fulfilled than it is to attempt to find fulfillment when we don’t yet know who we are.

Alienation and Spirituality

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Divided Against Ourselves

Alienation occurs when the physical and supra-physical aspects of our system are separated from each other and prevented from working together. Fear, greed, and desire keep the two major aspects of our system not only separate and divided, but also in conflict with each other as well. The more we permit the three forces of alienation to run rampant in our psyches, the more difficult it will be to find our true identity. When we are divided internally, it is easy to be in conflict and extremely difficult to be at peace.

Our world is a product of our internal alienation. Through that alienation we have created a world rife with conflict of all sorts and on all levels. It is a world that has too much violence and too little peace. If we can’t find peace within ourselves, how can we expect the world to provide that peace for us? The world is not responsible for our well-being. Quite to the contrary, we are collectively responsible for the world’s well-being. Unfortunately, because of the pervasive problem of alienation from the spirit and soul that plagues humanity, as well as the selfishness that alienation habitually breeds, we typically fail to consider the ramifications of our behavior on the world in which we live until it is too late.

A Peaceful Nature

A peaceful nature has always been the foundation of higher consciousness. As long as we are alienated from ourselves we cannot be at peace, and we will find it impossible to complete ourselves, move forward into the light, and elevate our lives. When we are only aware of part of ourselves, we cannot know who we really are. The problem of alienation is not only universal but is also the source of the silent epidemic of imbalance now plaguing the world. When we are alienated from ourselves, our spirit and our soul are absent from our lives. Without their influence, we can neither be in balance nor in tune with a reality larger than our own selfish interests. If we are not in touch with a larger reality, we will lack a cohesive and integrative vision to guide our lives, and with- out that vision we will be unable to find our purpose. Gandhi, Mother Teresa, Nelson Mandela, and the Dalai Lama, for instance, all had a coherent vision with a common theme. That common theme was serving the greater good of their people. Those visions were unselfish and motivated by unconditional love.

When the spirit is active in our lives, we can find common ground and resolve our differences. However, when the spirit is absent from our lives, those same differences quickly become insurmountable. In the aggregate, the three forces of alienation promote the increasing escalation of conflict and polarization throughout the world. They affect the individual by keeping him stirred up and focused on ambitions that do not serve his higher nature or allow him to fulfill himself but that lead him, instead, farther from inner peace and personal fulfillment. In the words of Christ, “What does it profit a man to gain the whole world but lose his soul?”